My Mind Says Bad Stuff About Guru Ji And Gursikhs

When I path/simran I get bad thoughts. I start saying bad things to Guru Ji and Gursikhs, and it distracts me and puts me off sometimes when I get a lot. It makes me feel down and I start getting headaches when I force my self to try and focus.

I feel guilty, that these thoughts are coming. When I wake up or am half asleep these thoughts come, and I feel that Guru Ji won't really love me or the Gursikhs.

Sometimes my mind says bad stuff to happen to my family or friends, I don't mean these thoughts they just come.

Is it ok if i just say Waheguru and ignore these thoughts when they come?

Any advice on how to stay strong?

Please forgive me if i said anything or offensive